My best friend leaves tomorrow, heading to Amsterdam, where he’s spending a few months working on his final year project. He came over today to say goodbye and it was a little awkward for both. We’ve known each other since age 4 and have been best friends for almost half of our lives. We’ve fallen out a couple of times and there’s still things about him that piss me off but I’ve come to accept him the way he is. I know I’ll miss him because he’s my only real friend and, even if we don’t hook up as often lately, we always try to find the way to squeeze some time to chat.
He’s trying to convince me to pay him a visit sometime in November and I’m really keen on the idea because it sounds really fun. However, I still have to ponder whether I should do it. First of all, I don’t know if I can afford it. I still have to pay a couple of installments of the teacher training and I’ve just bought tickets to pay my grandma a visit in December (she lives in Galicia, in Northern Spain). Sure, there won’t be many more chances to spend a week in Amsterdam not having to pay for accomodation – still, the tickets aren’t cheap and they obviously won’t be the only expenses. Besides, I’ll be travelling alone, because The Girlfriend can’t afford it and, as much as I’d love to pay for her costs, it isn’t possible. The good thing about that is that it’ll be just the two of us and that sounds lots of fun. The downside is that I know we’ll miss each other (we’re that silly) and I will feel slightly guilty because I won’t be seeing her much during the teacher training, either. We’ll see.
Other than that, there’s not much to say. I’ve been feeling really guilty over my academic life these days. This should’ve been my final year but I’m only halfways. I’ve been very slack this past year and though I’m trying to make it up in the September tests, I know it won’t make me feel any better. I haven’t made my mind up yet as to whether this is what I want to do but, mainly out of inertia, I’m still on the boat. I feel the need to take control of my life for once and for all yet I keep procrastinating day after day. Someone please wake me up!
